I am sure the cavity of my chest
is vast—a rabbit hole. I never learned
how to swim after falling through
the life preserver. It was evening,
looking upward there was sun, or was it
the same light at the end
of the invisible puzzle you said was
of a train track tunnel. You placed pieces in the air
above you, as the lymph nodes waged
a blood war. They were chieftains chanting,
“pain is the only evil” “evil is the only
pain” “pain is the only way” “bow to
us, bow to us.” I don’t have
nine lives, maybe I have ten. I survived
the water, a weakening heart, numb limbs,
the blackouts, and puking red. Why
didn’t I come back the same? You touched
me in my dream. I woke up expecting
a dog lick, there was an empty fifth and
an aftertaste of chlorine in my mouth and acid
burning in my throat. It’s not
that I ever needed.
Published in Cider Press Review, Volume 16, Issue 2.
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